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My Family Gave Up on Me

By Donna
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By Donna

Why did you decide to quit?

My decision was virtually based on that my whole family had given up on me. No one wanted to speak to me or have anything to do with me. One day I had too much to drink and was sent to the ER. I got a phone call from my daughter, she told me that my grandchildren were one of my reasons for living (I wanted to die). I went on line and found where the AA meetings were in my town and went to the very first meeting. My doctor also told me that my liver was accelerated, so he virtually told me that I would die if I kept it up.

How did you get sober?

I landed in the ER one night. A woman from Social Services talked to me and told me about AA and the outpatient program they had. My insurance did not cover the outpatient program, so I elected to go to AA. On my first meeting day I went to a meeting. While sitting in my car, afraid to go in, a man knocked on my window and asked me to join him. He got me coffee and introduced me to all of these wonderful people and that was the day I decided I wanted what they had. It was a newcomer meeting and I went to that meeting everyday.

Advice

  • Being sober is freeing and life is remarkable
  • Life is not easy, but it is easier when not drinking
  • Living life on life’s terms is awesome
  • Things begin to happen that you could not imagine
  • You can think straight
  • You can hold a job and people respect you for who you are

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June 26th, 2015  in How I Quit No Comments »

I Finally Had Enough

By Tracy
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By Tracy

Why did you decide to quit?

I decided that I had had enough. I’ve been in and out for some time. Enough is enough. I’m not only hurting myself, with black outs, waking up battered and bruised, I’m hurting my husband and dog.

I have been picked up by the police, my car has been impounded, I’ve been taken to the hospital by ambulance as I quit breathing.

I did 28 days in a treatment center, and that was good while I was in there. But when I left the center, I was back in my own environment. The center actually gave me a false sense of security. I was safe there, when I got out, I wasn’t so safe.

I haven’t had drink in 3 months now.

How did you get sober?

I started going to AA 2 years ago.

Up until 3 months ago, I never allowed myself to have any money on my person for the simple reason, that I knew I would use it for alcohol.

Recently, I have been diagnosed with cancer. Surprisingly, I haven’t picked up a drink. And I feel good about that. I have a lot of support from my sponsor and home group. My home life is much happier. I just woke up, and things were good.

I guess I got the message. I read my Daily Reflections and Big Book regularly. I realize now that there is a Higher Power out there. And mine are the people in the rooms and nature. And the Love and support that i get from my husband.

I haven’t had a drink in 3 months, and I just feel good. I do it one step and one day at a time.

I’m thankful to wake up in the mornings without wondering what I did, and how I’m going to fix it ‘this time’. When I go to bed at night, I’m thankful I’m sober when I go to sleep. Not passed out.

I am now doing the steps again. With the help of my sponsor, and doing them more honestly that I had the first time.

I can actually look people in the eye and honestly say that I have 90 days of sobriety. It feels good to be honest, not hide. life is good.

Even tho I have lung cancer, and will have to do chemo and radiation. I hope that I can beat that and stay sober through out my treatment.

Thanks to AA and the people around me, my higher power, I have a positive outlook on both diseases.

Advice

  • Don’t give up. some people like myself, take a little longer than others to get the message.
  • Get a sponsor, someone who you are comfortable with.
  • Go to meetings, as many as possible. It works if you work it.
  • Pray.
  • If you fall, pick yourself up and keep going.
  • Be honest with yourself and others.
  • You have nothing to lose, and everything to gain. Self respect, respect from others. you will have more confidence in yourself, and have a happy life.
  • Admitt to yourself that you are powerless over alcohol. It’s easy to say it, but harder to accept it.

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June 26th, 2015  in How I Quit No Comments »

I Hit Rock Bottom

By Hank
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By Hank

Why did you decide to quit?

In January of 09 I hit rock bottom. I was a single father living in an apartment with no heat, no job and my head filled with suicidal thoughts. I was filled with self pity and self loathing I looked at my son sleeping, steam poured from his little mouth and I knew at that moment I needed a change in my life.

How did you get sober?

I checked into a detox that day, a week later I got out and moved in with my mom and dad. I started going to AA meetings 2-3 times a day and totally surrendered. I took the advice from other recovering alcoholics and started working the twelve steps. Things were tough at times but I got through it, I had to believe that things would get better and they did. My father got sick with leukemia and I was his caretaker in his final days. I had to give him one my drugs of choice four times a day. When I couldn’t get to a meeting, friends came and watched my dad so i could go. I made it because of the people around me and a higher power. I’m sober ten months now and I’ve gained so much I have my own home and go to college full time.

Advice

  • You have to want it to get it, and be honest. Put your recovery first, everything else should come second.
  • It’s tough in the beginning but its worth it. Stay off the pity-pot and keep moving forward.
  • Make the right decisions no matter how much it hurts. In the end its worth it.

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June 26th, 2015  in How I Quit 1 Comment »

My Control Vanished

By Solas
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By Solas

Why did you decide to quit?

I drank heavily for almost 40 years and I think that I had some control over my drinking. However, that control vanished completely within a period of less than a couple of years. I then realized that I could never drink enough to satisfy my needs and that with all of my willpower, I could not stop drinking on my own – that was one hell of a place to be. The two choices that I had were very clear in my mind: one was to continue to complete ruin (within a short time) and early death; the other was to swallow my pride and seek help. I hated both options.

How did you get sober?

Although I did not like Alcoholics Anonymous or believe very much that they could help me, I soon realized that I was completely wrong. With the help of AA, a Higher Power, and a good sponsor, I found it very easy to get sober. I did not believe in miracles but now, I do.

The 12 Step Program of AA has transformed my life completely. The self-pity that came with the realization that I am an alcoholic is now gone. Before, I barely existed – now I can live.

I can never give enough thanks to God and to AA for what I have been freely given. My great wish is that other people who are suffering because of alcohol will find the strength to reach out and seek that same help, that will bring them happiness, peace of mind and many other benefits.

Advice

  • Without a doubt, the greatest advice that I could give to anyone who is considering quitting is to do what I was afraid to do for so long – go along to a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous – you won’t regret it.
  • Give yourself a chance by attending as many meetings as you can manage at the start. Listen to others sharing and some of what they say will begin to stick in your mind.
  • Bear in mind that you are among people who are just like you but who have recovered from alcoholism. They have been where you are and will understand your problems as nobody else can.
  • It will work for you if you want it to work.

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June 26th, 2015  in How I Quit No Comments »

I Was Forced to Quit

By Sheri D.
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By Sheri D.

Why did you decide to quit?

Dec. 08 I became very sick, I was at home four days before I realized I was on my death bed. I had the worst stomach ache in the world. I call a co-worker and told her to take me to the hospital because I couldn’t take this pain any longer. When I got there my stomach was swollen as if I was nine months pregnant. They told me my that my skin looked grey. The doctor ordered all kinds of test and the results were I had pancreatitis so they admit into the hospital for nine days. I was told I couldn’t drink anymore because my pancreatitis came from excessive drinking. I quit, but it was a struggle.

How did you get sober?

I went to AA and counseling. I am still trying to stay sober, but it’s not easy. It a difference when you try on your own to quit, but it’s even harder when you are forced to quit because of a illness.

Advice

  • Trust God while you go through quitting and He will see you though this trying time. Nobody can do this alone. Seek positive new friends. I lost all of my old friend, but I am okay with that because all we did was drink together.

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My Way Wasn’t Working

By Terri
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By Terri

How long were you in rehab?

Eight weeks, including two in detox hospital and six inpatient / residential without leaving until staff said I could go home. I also did 90 meetings in 90 days and still attend AA on a weekly or more basis – as needed.

What was the most helpful feature of rehab?

I accepted that doing things my way wasn’t working. I began to listen. and I mean really listen. Sometimes I would have to focus on every word said. The other addicts were not always making sense and sometimes hitting me right where I need to feel it. Believe me I hadn’t felt anything for along time! “Big jim” said you’ve been making a cake the same way for 30 years and it hasn’t worked. ie; the definition of insanity is the same thing over and over again. Sounds simple but it hit me that I had destroyed everything and everyone around me including myself. On my last drunk I found myself hitting my 70 year-old-mother in the back of the head with my palm because she was so stupid. And she was the last person left I knew who would even let me speak to her. I’ve been completely clean 8 1/2 years. I now feel, I cry, I really laugh and I listen. I love my family again and thank god they never stopped loving me.

Advice

  • It’s not about stopping, stopping is hard at first because it’s all you know but after some clarity reaches that soggy brain.
  • You will get a bigger HIGH from life and feeling and remembering you moments – good and bad..

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June 26th, 2015  in How I Quit No Comments »

I Didn’t Want to Live Anymore

By Dancer
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By Dancer

Why did you decide to quit?

My last drunk, I had a bottle of pain pills, a gallon of gin and 2 loaded guns. I came to the jumping off place and I didn’t want to live life anymore. I was too drunk to shoot myself but I did overdose. I woke up in the ER and a nurse looked at me and asked if I thought I had a problem with alcohol! I thought to my self give me until noon and I will be okay and then I can start drinking again. That is not what happened.

How did you get sober?

I called an Indian woman I had met during my 10 years in and out of AA and told her I had drank again. She asked if she could find someone to take me would I go. Of course I said yes, but when I got off the phone I panicked and thought what did I just do? I thought when she gets here I won’t answer the door but my Higher Power had other plans for me. I went to a 7-day treatment center and when I got out I went to an A.A. meetings. It was a speaker meeting and I cried all through the meeting and don’t remember anything that was said. After being in A.A. three months I finally got from my head to my heart that I was an alcoholic and could admit it to the group of A.A. members. What a burden was lifted off my chest.

Advice

  • You’re not done until your are done. You don’t have to take the elevator to the bottom floor you can get off at any time. If you are young please give A.A. a chance, you have the rest of your life to live sober. And for everyone else you too can get off on any floor. Find a power greater than you are and ask for help to quit drinking. It works it really does. That is why I am sharing my story. Life is so good today because I was willing, open and honest with myself, others and to my Higher Power. If you don’t remember your last drunk you have not had it. Please give yourself a chance.

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June 26th, 2015  in How I Quit No Comments »

Prayer Helped the Most to Quit Drinking

By Mary Anne
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By Mary Anne

Why did you decide to quit?

I got tired of stumbling around unpacked boxes in my own house especially when I fell and got wedged between two of them and couldn’t get up because I had broken my shoulder. When my husband called 911, I was so embarrassed I refused to go in the ambulance and argued with the paramedics, even lying about how I fell. I found out when I was put in the hospital by my doctor it was not to set my shoulder, it was to detox me and get psychiatric and pharmacological help. Discharged on a regimen of pills that I could use to self-medicate, rather than liquor. Underlying problems never really went away.

How did you get sober?

I substituted vitamins and nerve pills for the alcohol; then, pain pills when I got my shoulder operated on. It’s been 4 operations, almost 5 years and I don’t drink, but still on pain meds (prescription but non-addictive, mild). The underlying problems which led to my drinking were then addressed by me alone when I turned to the Bible, prayer and meditation which I now heavily rely on. There is no temptation to have just one drink. The smell of it even sickens me.

Advice

  • I never thought I could last an hour without knowing where my next drink would come from. No one could have convinced me that I could live life without alcohol. It had to come from a traumatic event (painful shoulder break) and subsequent hospitalization for detox. When you come to the end of your rope, I hope you will realize it and let medical professionals help you, even if it means taking medication. It seems as if you’re trading one addiction for another, but at least the meds are controlled by your doctor and you can be successfully weaned off of them as I was. But prayer is what helped the most.

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I Finally Quit in the Hospital

By Arnie
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By Arnie

Why did you decide to quit?

I began my journey into “recovery” starting in 1995. During the span of years to date, I have managed to stay sober twice for two years straight, six times for a year stretch, and many staggered months in between my relapses. During this time I have heard a number of times that relapse is a part of recovery. Hitting Bottom to me happened many times over, each time always the same retort, I’ve hit bottom, that’s it, I’ll never drink again, only to be sober for three, maybe four, sometimes more and then I get blindsided. You start felling just a little “TOO” good, and wham !!! There you are again, drunk

How did you get sober?

I finally sobered up during my last stay at the hospital. It was this time that I required four units of blood to bring me back to a state of normality, coupled with massive intravenous injections of vitamins, nutrients, etc; I lost track of all that they were injecting me with. after a little over 13 years of in and out of AA, many attempts to do it on my own, I finally came to my senses and realized that this was the closest I had ever come to losing my life to alcohol. It was just what I needed to really give me that wake up call and realize that this was to be the turning point. Either quit for good, or surrender and die.

Advice

  • Be honest with yourself. Latch onto to some solid members in the 12 step program, yes, it actually does work and help, you just have to surrender yourself and commit with all your earnest. Find yourself a good sponsor, don’t worry if you don’t feel comfortable, you can always change sponsors when times may seem too uncomfortable with the current person. Don’t worry, a “solid” AA member will not bear offense to being “let go” and may actually even refer you to someone that he/she feels might be a better fit for you. You’ve nothing to lose at this point, just your serenity, sobriety, and peace of mind.

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A Brain Injury Helped Wake Me Up

By Brenda
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By Brenda

Why did you decide to quit?

I finally hit rock bottom! I have been in and out of AA, in and out of insitutions, rehabs and got really sick and tired of myself playing games to my mind. I blamed people, I blamed my family, most of all I blamed God for all of my wrong doings. I had an traumatic brain injury due to my chosen sport, this was the time to learn about me, a chance to get myself clean and sober. Deciding what’s important to me right now and taking charge of who I am, knowing I can reach a new level in my life instead of drinking and thinking the bad all the time. I have a purpose in living and knowing what’s true, right and correct.

How did you get sober?

I got sober in a alcohol/drug rehab and lived in a brain rehab/assistance living facility and have been clean and sober for now one year. I have a good AA sponsor, meetings every night and am total honesty with myself. That is how I am staying sober today, working the steps and being honest. My Higher Power, who I call God, takes me through the day with strength, most of all patience. Using and working my Steps daily “Willingness to Change” and “Decision to Change” These are my steps that I took. I know for sure Step 10 is a continuous practice of Steps 4-9 on a daily basis.

Advice

  • It takes a willingness self to change. Making a decision is taking action and doing it with honesty! Putting anger to the side, it self destructs and leads back to drinking, I know this because I am still powerless over “anger attitude.” To build change, to become aware of our strengths when we feel we belong and not alone and when we have a sense of hope and can see the goods and positivity, it’s how we can accept ourselves as we are and not fight it.

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